Down and Up Again

6 pm
Sitting on my lovesack listening to my Eric Whitacre radio station on Pandora.
Feeling kind of down, but no reason to be feeling this way.
You know that sinking sensation when you realize that your suspicion was correct--your crush likes someone else?
Yeah, got that today.
Again.
It shouldn't get me down when I knew all along that he wouldn't ever be interested in me. I'm not his type.
Still kinda stinks though.
I'm getting sick of getting my hopes up that maybe I have a chance with someone and then I don't.
Every time I go out once, twice, even three times with a guy and I start to like him, he ends up dating someone else (usually within a few weeks).
It was kind of funny at first, you know, what are the chances right? Lots of laughs...until the pattern continued on for weeks...months...it's been going on since April! The first girl the guy dates after taking me out a couple times becomes the girlfriend, fiance, even wife!
The pattern is starting to get really old...
Internet connection is bad, pandora isn't working well.
Today the meetings at church were really wonderful. I felt the spirit and learned a lot. It was kind of funny though: During Relief Society some sisters were talking about how they're getting into their late 20's and aren't married. They're getting really discouraged because they strongly desire to have a family.
I'm not exactly anxious to get married right away, I'm not ready to have children and I still have lots of things to work through before I'll feel ready to get married. But I really would like to date again. Last summer I went on lots of dates but I really have hardly dated at all since school started again.

Well, that's enough moping...

10 pm
Went on a nice long walk along the base of the mountain with my roommate.
Had a really good chat and enjoyed the beautiful weather.
Did my laundry.
Ran into Kalee, John, and Jessica and chatted.
Jimmy came hometeaching. He's pretty much my favorite hometeacher ever and I always feel better after talking with him.
God is good. He truly knows us!